I'm ready to runaway myself! Frick I hate the Republic of Washington & the dreary wet weather that comes with it!!! It's a helluva thing to wish your life away but I want outta here! Ten years & counting....

Clay HoHoHo!

 

I guess I'm not the only one that seems to be in just a miserable state of being lately.

Started for me in March of 2007 when my girlfriend of 2 and a half years tore my heart out by ending the relationship with absolutely no warning. I was really messed up for a while after that, drank myself stupid damn near every night, just tryting to drown my sorrows.

Fast forward to August of 2007, I wreck my car. Guy blew a stop sign and I plowed him doing 50mph. 5 years of busting my *** making payments, working 2 jobs at some points to make ends meet, gone in an instant because of someone else's stupidity. All I have to show for it is back problems.

Spring of 2007 I had finished a course of study in auto body repair at the community college I still attend for motorcycle service technology. That was 2 years wasted in auto body repair. That industry went down the toilet right around when I completed my schooling. That's what drove me to bikes. I had always been interested in them, then the opportunity presented itself to learn how to work on them, so I figured, why not?

2008 hasn't been too great either. My dad was diagnosed with Parkinson's disease, on top of his diabetes and degenerative disc disorder in his back. He had surgery on his back this past August to remove a cyst that was pressing on his spinal cord, causing numbness and pain in his leg. He got better for a while after that, then about a month ago, things snapped back to really bad. Some days he can hardly walk because of his back and legs.

In september, my mom was diagnosed with breast cancer. Lovely, just what we needed in the family, MORE health problems. She had surgery to remove the cancer, and just finished her radiation a few weeks ago. She has her final follow-up appointment coming up soon to check things out to see if it's gone for good.

My dad's probably gonna end up back in the hospital soon. He's just waiting to be added onto my mom's insurance since he's on disability and no longer working, and has no medical coverage other than thru the VA, which isn't that great.

My life has been pretty bad lately too. Job sucks, it's an absolute dead-end job. Been there 2 years, no pay raise, no opportunity for advancement. But, I ain't gonna quit until I've got something else in place. And this time, it's gonna be in the industry I'm studying in. I'm not wasting another 2 years of my life and multiple thousands of dollars in tuition again.

That and I feel like my dad is asking me to put my personal life aside, and if I'm not at work or school, I should be here helping him deal with stuff at home while my mother works 6/7 days a week. He can do stuff, he just doesn't want to. He wants everyone to feel sorry for him and cater to his every whim and desire. I've been going along with it for a while, but last weekend was the last straw for me. I had my whole evening and night planned out last saturday after work. I was gonna go get my latest tattoo re-touched, then head out to either the bar or casino with one of my buddies. But, my dad called me right as I was leaving work, acted like there was something drastically wrong here, and he needed my help with it. So, I call my guy at that tat shop, cancel my appointment, then call my buddy and tell him I can't make it out that night. It was really nothing. He just wanted me to go run errands for him and make dinner because he didn't wanna do anything. Pissed me off to no end. I just locked myself in the room here after dinner, and didn't come out til sunday morning. Then, sunday, my plan was to go do some christmas shopping. Nope. Damn old man bitched a fit when I went to leave because he wanted me to help with some housework crap. So, to shut him up, I stayed and helped him. An entire weekend wasted because of my dad. I know he has health issues, but he's not unable to do normal everyday things around the house and crap. Just pisses me off that I'm expected to drop my life to attend to him. Call my sister, have her come down and help out once in a while if you want/need help with stuff. But, she can't be bothered to make the 10 minute drive down here to help out her family.

Makes my life miserable.

I just feel sometimes like loading up my car with whatever I can fit in it, and leaving and never coming back.

There were a couple times, it was so bad, I just felt there was no reason to carry on. But, then I thought about it, and realized how stupid and selfish that truly would be.

I just gotta stick it out until May when I'll be done with school, and hopefully, by then I'll have a job lined up in the motorcycle industry, making more money than I do doing BS work at my current job.

Sorry to drag on like that. I just need to vent sometimes.

 

Life is short, usually the only one to show up to my pity party is me. I have a very close friend who was on top of the world, doing what only mattered to him. Oct he became very ill, has myloma cancer. I visited him in Mesa, AZ over thanskgiving. I didn't ride the bike because he hasn't ridden since oct and will probably not ride anytime soon. He was told that 4 yrs tops would be it. He sure is a different guy now. Long story, my point is that all things are not always important until you come to grips with reality that it is planned to end sooner than you thought it would. Live every day as if it were your last.

 

SON OF A BIAATCH!! I was in a pretty good mood till I started reading this. Now I'm depressed. Gonna have to go for a ride to work it out. It's cold out so I better bundle up.

Later.

 

Sign me up too. Last 10 years have been pretty lousy to say the least.

 

life is what it is . some day's good some great and some just suck.kid's well they are just kid's.yea winter suck's always has and it has just started got a while before thing's get better.you can't let thing's get you down consider the thing's you do have. and the fact you are still above ground.

 

Now that is what life is really about always look at the positives to help you get through the tougher times.... Nice post

 

I've run away from it all so many times, I've lost count. Feels good for a little while, then it the same ol' chit, different town. Trust me running away never solves your problems. Wherever you go, there you are.

As the OP showed so brilliantly, it's all a matter of perspective. You might not be able to do anything to physically change what's going on around you, but you can change how you look at it.

That being said, I definitely would not turn down a month long ride out west.

 

Hell ya! Sometimes I fantasize about running away from it all (more like RIDING away from it all, lol) with just me and my bike and going on a endless Road Trip - to never return! Travelling around the country like a vagabond, stopping here and there along the way to spend a week or two or a month or whatever. Get a part time job at a hardware store and stay at the local KOA as I enjoy some small town someplace perhaps.

All just fantasy of course but fun to entertain myself with such thoughts...

 

It would be nice to get away for a long weekend ride but not till spring its29 degrees and getting ready to snow